Sunday, December 13, 2009

Where is my ambition?

Where is my ambition?
I don't think I have any.
Is it that I am afraid? Is it that I am lazy?
Is is because I don't know what I am worth?
Is it because I do not like to make decisions?
Is it because I don't want to take the lead?
Is it because I don't want responsibilty?

What is it that makes me nervous?
Why do I want to hide?

How does this make me feel?
Silly
little
girl
......
53
year old
little
girl.

Silly
Silly
Silly

Where is all of this coming from again?

Cindy has once again got me an opportunity to
paint at the dentist office.
Now I need to come up with ideas
(got that)
and worse still...pricing.

I've spent the day on the internet
gathering facts
getting ideas
seeing what others can do
and seeing that I can paint better than some.

I am sure that I can paint.
I can create.
I can give my talent to others.

I just have a hard time selling myself.

My friends encourage me.
My family tells me I am good.
My customers...(when they find me)
love my work.

Then why do I want to hide?
Silly
Silly girl
This is the painting I did for someone this week. It is his wife's cat and he had it painted for her as a Christmas present. It is an 8x10 and I got $50




1 comment:

Rachel said...

you are a very gifted artist and you could make money from it. a LOT of money. however, you do with your God given gift what you want to. It's not a bad thing to be modest. also, your talents do not stop at painting. you are a creative genius.. yes you are, dont argue! lol anyways, do what is in your heart, just make sure you dont sell yourself short. :)